Tomorrow, or Feb. 12th, is the anniversary of my grandmother's death. I know that all of my blog rollers love me and understand me, so please bear with me as I use this as a way of writing down my feelings, regrets, and most importantly memories of a truly amazing woman.
My grandmother passed away a year ago. As the pastor said at her funeral, the biggest lie that was ever written about her was that she died. She is so alive right now and I believe that with all of my heart. She lived an incredible life. Everything she did was a testimony to her belief in an amazing God that she loved dearly. I believe that she is with that amazing God now. I wish that everyone could have known how precious she was. She lived through a LOT of rough stuff. Her mother died when she was young, she had a lot of siblings, she had her first baby while her husband was in another country and raised that baby for a year without him there. Can you imagine??
She was also one of the best grandmothers you could ask for. She took care of us when we were sick. She kept up with all of our toys that we left at her house. She fed us (and good too)! She prayed for us. She taught us Bible verses. She played with us and even went along with our jokes and pranks.
I regret so much not taking the time to talk to her and thank her when I had the chance. I know that I can't change that now and I know that she knew that I loved her, but it still bothers me that I didn't cherish EVERY moment, even when she bothered me (or so I thought).
So the top things that I miss about my grandmother....
1) I miss her smile.
2) I miss watching her fall asleep when she just meant to "sit down and rest a minute."
3) I miss her cards and letters.
4) I miss smelling her cooking.
5) I miss talking to her on the phone.
6) I miss her advice.
7) I miss her sewing and hemming....you have to understand that NOTHING fits on me the way it should.
8) I miss hearing her talk to the answering machine (Hey Kristy. It's Granny. How are you? I'm doing good today. Just wanted to call and tell you....Kristy, are you there? It's Granny.). LOVED that.
9) I miss calling her about cooking advice and her thinking it was the greatest thing in the world.
10) But most importantly, I just miss her. I miss EVERYTHING about her.
Don't get me wrong. I watched her suffer through a painful battle with cancer. I wouldn't DARE wish her back here for anything. She is in the most wonderful place that I can ever imagine and praising her Creator. I am exetremely happy for her. I just miss her. So please, take some time today and call up your family members, even the ones that annoy you. Don't take them for granted. And if you don't mind, please keep my family in your prayers today especially.
I love you all!
7 comments:
Oh how this post was written for me today.
I'm sure when you sat down to write it, you could have never known, that today too, is a hard day for our family.
You see, on the day of the anniversary of the passing of your precious, adorable grandmother, is also the birthday of my precious, adorable grandmother that went home to be with the Lord just a short 8 months ago. It feels like such a short amount of time ago, and it still hurts just as bad.
I actually wrestled with writing a post in honor of her birthday (today), but just couldn't bring myself to do it or formulate my words correctly. I don't think enough time has passed just yet for me to do that.
So thank you. Because your post says exactly what my heart feels, but could not communicate as I too, remember a special woman on her special day.
I love you!!! :)
Lindsey, I miss you so much and love you! I didn't know that, but I'm glad that God is still using my grandmother's death to bless others. I love you Linds and hope that you have as great of a day as you possibly can!
Thank you for writing this, and I'm sorry about your grandma. She sounds like an incredible lady, much like my grandma. Thanks for reminding me that I still have my grandma here, and I need to take the time now so I won't regret not taking it later. Your words blessed my heart today so thank you!
Thanks Tonya! It really does make you think a lot about those who are still around! Good to hear from you!
Kristy -- Your grandmother loved all her "girls" more than anyone could know. She was so proud of you all -- one way she showed it was by constantly "worrying" over each of you. She and your grandfather will always hold a special place in our lives since they helped us be able to purchase our land from them by financing it for us (even after they let us be "squatters" for about seven years). They "believed" in us as a young couple and we will never forget that. --and that's not even counting all the times they picked up or brought home me and my sister to and from church events -- making it possible for us to be involved as youth at Whitefield. Your blog brought a tear to my eye -- I will certainly remember all your family in prayer. Love - Sandra E.
Sandra,
Your words are so sweet! You have to know how much I love your ENTIRE family! You and Jerry were always amazing role models and I don't think that you could have had two better kids. I am blessed to call both of them friends, but also family. And now, both of them have picked amazing people to spend the rest of their lives with. It is a true testament to the faith and values that you instilled in your children. I'm glad to know that my grandparents had a little something to do with that. I was proud before, but you reminded how very proud I should be!! Love you!
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